It has been a month...

Since I'm kinda free now, wanna post something here before my blog is declared DEAD. xD
Feel lazy to study now. Been attending EDC class for the last 2 days for the whole day. I missed the first class on Wed. I didn't even know the class has been moved forward. Sweat-ness. What's making me feel worse is having terrible back pain. Maybe didn't sleep properly. Sigh... Can't move much, can't bend down also. >.<
F5 EDC is okay. Surprisingly, I didn't get sleepy in class. What a history. xD
At least Roger and Ivan went for the class with me, although they do skipped class and over-break. LOL..
Well, honestly I do feel more independent now. At first, I was afraid of being and doing everything alone, especially when my sis and my friends are not with me. But now, kinda get used to it already. It's not as bad as I thought anyway. So, it means I should be okay if I'm alone? @.@

21 Apr 2009

The day I lost the one whom I love. My beloved grandma..
I still can't believe that she's gone now. I still can feel that she's around us all now.
It happened so fast and I'm not really prepared to accept it when it happened. We have been rushing to hospital twice, early in the morning, from hostel. Once is when I was having my F5 class and the other one on this date's morning where we were stuck in the jam for quite long. I kept praying hard, hoping that she could hold on and she did,until every member of my family is by her side on that day although she can't open her eyes to see us.
And in the evening, when we all thought she's okay, so we make a move to our hostel. But my heart doesn't feel good, telling me it's gonna end soon but I don't care much about it. Just keep praying that she will be okay.
As we were already reaching the Sunway bridge, EJ received a call and asked us to turn back, which is actually very far away from the hospital. We thought it's a false alarm again. But it's not. On the way there, my uncle called saying that she has gone. All of us in the car,including my aunt and cousins were shocked, really. We totally cannot believe it happened so sudden.

Now, thinking back everything about her, I can't help it but to cry. I miss her so badly. T.T
It has been almost to a month now, and I still can't believe that she's out of my life now.
It just happened too fast.
All I hope now is she could tell me in my dreams on how is she doing now. I've been dreaming of her for quite a few times, making me miss her more.
Looking back to those pictures where she's still around, making me cry too. I can't control my tears from flowing down. I didn't know this could affect my life so much and making me being so emotional. Everytime I went to visit her in hospital, I will surely start crying. Seeing her suffered make me feel that it's better to let her go but at the same time, I don't want her to go. sigh...
Okay, I cried alot lately. Just being too emotional and I can't help it. I just need alot of time to get over it and have myself back again, like before.

For a year, I can't attend any weddings and birthday celebration.
Didn't attend Kathy's and Bernice's 21st Birthday Party celebration too. =(
sigh..... Gonna be a kinda dull year. CNY celebration is definitely out next year. But still can receive angpao lah.. hehe.. Just can't celebrate and go for visiting only. Maybe my big family should plan for a holiday since all of us won't be celebrating CNY next year. =D
and I just got a call from Maggie, inviting me to her bday party. I can't go. Sob sob..

Yesterday, Bernice came over to my hostel with her birthday cheese cake. Love it.. ^^
So, me and Joie cooked dinner for her too, so-called to 'celebrate' her bday on Thurs.. hahah..
Of course we will start chit-chatting, as usual. All about her bday.. Pity her too, got 'abused' by YX and Kathy. =D
And since the Leng Lui no.1 and 2 didn't take any pics on her bday, here are some pics, taken in my room. For fun. xD
*actually we took alot alot of pics.. LOL.. pity Joie*
Dedicated To Bernice Liang.. =)

She loves stuffs with blink blink. That explained why her presents are all blinky type. xD

Our pics without specs.

and with specs. hahah..

Swt. She ter-messed up my hair. And she's trying to make a crown on her hair.
She's a princess, you see. LOL

She looked funny here. xD
Joie randomly took a pic of her. Gotcha !! =P

Do we look like besties here? lol
But we were not arguing okay? =P

Posed again. This time is with her crown. Hehehe..

Need some comment here.
Do we looked better with or without specs? >.<

Ber ber with Jenn jenn

She was extremely happy that night. Can't stop taking pics. Hahah..

Those cards with gold and silver blinky are our keys for her to the adult world.
They are made up of 15 different designs - 21st YEARS OLD (in chinese characters) and BERNICE LIANG

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BERNICE !!